Tuesday, 9 October 2012


I decided to use another blog to chart my journey through university. The latest posts are a little depressing (I prefer "honest" but that's what people must think) but have a look, and if you like it then follow me!

Hope you're all well X

Wednesday, 21 March 2012

Pointless Post

I'm getting so bad at writing these. I don't really have anything noteworthy to say, at all. I've been off school with illness today and yesterday and I haven't done anything other than procrastinate and do my coursework. On Saturday I went shopping and bought some new clothes which I guess is exciting seeing as I now have things that I can actually wear, and I got my hair cut. That's it. I guess my life is slowing down right now as everything builds up to summer but now that it's spring I'll try to get a grip on my life, my school work and this blog. Just an update to tell you all that I'm not dead. Oh, and this series of RuPaul's Drag Race is amazing. Here's a few pictures of my friends and I at a party and my new haircut somewhere in there, it won't let me change the order of the photos but whatever. Hope you're having a nice week X

Wednesday, 7 March 2012

Fight For Your Rights

There is so much hate in the world. So much disorder, so much violence, so much rage. I long for the day in which we can step out of our front door and embrace the world without fear, or resentment; the sad thing is that this idea is probably too idealistic for reality. For every uninterrupted moment of bliss, there's a violent tsunami of reality.

You're probably wondering where this has all come from, and I'm going to tell you where. Today, in our routine general Religious Education lesson, we were on the topic of gay marriage as it's a topic being discussed in the news right now as the Church are planning to condemn it on Sunday (read this for more information). My friend, who shall remain nameless, asked our teacher to explain the view of the Catholic Church to us as we were bewildered at some of the explanations being given by some clergy-members. The teacher then went on to say that it is written in the Bible that homosexuality is "immoral" to which I questioned and basically got this response: because God said so. No real answer or explanation. Then the teacher went on to describe why marriage is a sacrament: God becomes present because the two loves being combined create one special love which is a life-giving love and this is why the issue of gay/lesbian marriage is disallowed because gay and lesbian sex cannot produce offspring. But if this is the case, then what about reproductively challenged women? Their love cannot create a child biologically so using your judgement and explanation, the couple shouldn't marry because they can't pro-create? To which the teacher replied, "they're not doing it deliberately." This infuriated me. I'm quite sure gay people or lesbians do not get together and have sex purely for the fact that they cannot create life; they're having sex because they want to consummate their love. My teacher then went on to say that, and my blood boils as I type this, "homosexuality is a sin, it's an abomination of humankind." The word "abomination" grabbed me and chewed me up with it's teeth like a great bit monster. How dare he refer to homosexuals as such? It's not a conscious decision on our, or our parent's side; it's not an illness or condition that can be controlled with medication. Yet it still baffles me how people can think and act this way which shows a blatant lack of respect and care towards the LGBT community. If he were to say racist comments to an African person in the class then everyone would be up in arms, so why is homophobia always brushed to the side? I've made it my destiny to fight for my communities rights, no matter what. We need to be brave, for each-other. We can beat this.

My friend consoled me afterwards and he put it in a way that I couldn't express better: "Love is love, the most pure, uplifting thing that we have, it's what makes life worth living and what makes the world go around. Why anyone would want to put rules, confinements or restrictions on love is beyond me. Maybe if **teacher's name** had experienced any real hardships or sad times or had any real struggles, then he might see that life is far too short to worry about what other people do in their own lives. We're fabulous. Deal with it."

Be brave, with me, for you, X

Monday, 20 February 2012

I'm Not Dead Just Yet

Hi there,
I know it's been so long since I last blogged but I haven't had anything to say really. I've just been winding down and winding up, adjusting myself to the breaks from school. I return to school tomorrow morning so this is my last day of reckoning spent in bed with 7 UP and RuPaul's Drag Race. I'm sure there's work that I have due in that I haven't even attempted yet but guess what? That won't be getting done any time in the near future. It keeps dawning on me that I only have about 3 months left in school before I leave to take my A2 exams which means I seriously need to "take my finger out" and do some hard work. I'm actually going to do some right after this post. I have a film script to re-draft, an English essay about "Girl, Interrupted" and "The Bell Jar" (yes I'm still doing that frigging essay) and then I have another book to read for another essay which won't be too bad because I've read the book before, a couple of months ago. It's, "The L-Shaped Room" by Lynn Reid Banks. It's quite good, a little boring towards the end but the story is really good. I've also been going to the cinema quite a lot lately and I've seen some really great films. Last night I saw, "Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close" which was quite good, really poignant and heart-breaking though. I actually cried twice. Another great film I've seen is, "The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo." That was pretty amazing and Rooney Mara is one fearless actress.
Another thing that has happened is I've become overly obsessed with the beautiful Lana Del Rey. Her album came out on January 30th and since then it's been the only album I have listened to. It's pretty good so if you like melancholy-drugged-up-pop-noir then go buy a copy, it's called, "Born To Die." One more thing before I go, I watched Boys Don't Cry for the first time the other night and oh Lord that film is brilliant. I think Hilary Swank's portrayal of Brandon Teena (Teena Brandon) is amongst the best performances I've ever seen on film, and ChloĆ« Sevigny is  ChloĆ« Sevigny, enough said. It's a really powerful film with some intense scenes (the double rape scene, the seduction of Lana, Sevigny's character and the exposure of Brandon's female genitalia) but it is so worth it. I've never been so engrossed in a person's story as much as I have with this film's protagonist's story. It's incredible to say the least, go watch it as soon as you can get a copy. I'm going to have to start my film script now so I'll leave you with one of my favourite songs that features in "Boys Don't Cry." It's called, 'The Bluest Eyes In Texas' by 'A Camp' but it's a cover song from a band called, 'Restless Heart.' their version is good too, but I prefer A Camp's version.
Hope you're all well X

The Bluest Eyes In Texas - A Camp